2005-01-01 - 11:48 p.m.
i want to cut cut cut cut cut till i'm covered in blood from head to toe. I want to rip my hair out, pull out my fingernailz, break my bonez. I want to hurt on the outside not on the inside.
I don't say why me. i know why itz me. Coz i'm the typical naive person who doesn't know anything and letz teeny tiny eventz fuck up her whole life and letz insignificant wordz stay in her head.
The people that hate me are lucky because at least i can't mess up their livez. At least I can't hurt them. I do that with everyone. All my friendz, my family. I make thingz worse for them. And itz true. I'm not just saying it to feel sorri for myself. I've looked over it a million times and all i do is hurt ppl.
frog: i alwayz make her feel bad and alwayz freak her out with my suicidal shit.
I don't know what to do. I can't keep doing this. I can't. It has to end