2005-07-14 - 9:18 p.m.
i can't stop crying. last night. so close all day. and now. whats happening? what snapped? i don't know. but. me and frog barely exist anymore. she doesn't turn up to school. its just a cycle of repressed anger and false laughing. aimees leaving at the end of the year. isabelle is busy being fucked up too. i don't know what to do. i'm scared i'm gonna kill myself. i don't want to be alone. i can pretend its not there if i'm speaking to someone. i just don't want this anymore. i can't breathe. please. tell me whats wrong with me. i can't be depressed. no. no. no. it can't come back. not again. no. go away. I'M OVER IT. I'M NOT DEPRESSED. why can't they understand who i am? who cares. just somebody tell me what am i supposed to do now?
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